Lilly , I read your very honest post and couldn’t help but be touched by it .
You deserve the very best life has to offer – and that means someone who makes you feel secure – someone who will find a way to spend time with you and someone who understands that feelings change all the time in relationships – it isn’t all singing and dancing .
I go through times when I feel I can’t stand my husband, times when he terribly annoying , times when I love him dearly – but never a time when I doubt his love for me .
You ex- partner sounds immature – Perhaps with his gambling addiction he has not had time to mature in other ways . We have all had our edges knocked off over many years , had to lose our selfish ways and put our kids first , had to grin and bear many things like horrible bosses because we had to provide for our children . Maybe some of us learn those lessons later in life . Maybe some of us never learn .
You have had a complicated, difficult and quite insecure life – you deserve to be with someone who you can give you a sense of security- someone who no matter what mistakes you both make , you can depend on the other being there to help pick up the pieces . You deserve a totally reliable partner – you deserve to be loved for being the wonderful person you are .
You are worth a 1,000,000 mile drive .
I hope you meet someone wonderful who appreciates then absolute treasure he has found . Please keep posting and feel free to pop over to see us in the other forum .