Gemen and Laura, thankyou both for taking the time to post on my thread, I hope you are both keeping well.
Gemen I am really glad you found this site and also found recovery, this addiction takes everything and then some as I am sure you already know, I have struggled for years but the difference being for around the last 7 years I have wanted to stop and that is the only thing that has kept my wife and children around me and probably also alive!
Before I didnt want to stop and didnt care who I hurt but now I do, dont get me wrong I have messed up and gambled many times over the last 7 years however I still consider myself in recovery because when my addiction isnt in control and I am of sane mind I want to be in recovery and not gambling, speaking now on my lunch break from work, I am off sane mind, sober, taking no drugs and fully aware of who I am and I can say with hand on heart I dont wont to gamble and I want to be in recovery always and forever because that is when I am most happy.
I cannot lie to you I am one of those people who cannot say I have placed my last bet and I wil never gamble again but what I do know is “just for today” I will not gamble and with that I am happy.
Again another silly thing for me to say and I am sure it is obvious………but my happiest days in my life have been when I have not gambled, I have a massive ego I am sure and I look at myself often picking faults with myself and looking at ways I can improve myself only to forget about those faults the next day and do exactly the same………………life hey Gemen……whats it all about my friend……….wish you well and be sure to look after your wife and child……….they are priceless!
My best to you all and hope this finds you well.
Maverick