Last day gambled 15/01/2018.
I have taken evertrhing back to basics, I have handed over all roads to access cash so from here on in I dont have any access something I did before (and it worked) just over time I slowly took control back and as proven it doesnt work me having access to money…….I am too compulsive and kamakazi at times just dont no why but thats not important I dont need to know why I do it but at least I know I do it.
I have closed every door bar 1 with regards places I can gamble within a 10 mile radius……..I will find some passport photos tonight and drive to that last place tomorrow in my lunch to self exclude……….being totaly honest with myself and you all I tried before to self exclude from this place and there response was (I cant find the book!!!!! )This happened twice I will not take no for an answer tomorrow because this was my only (comfortable place left to gamble) meaning once I self exclude from this last place I am much more less likley to drive over 10 miles to somewhere I dont know or havent gone into before……I am a creature of habbit and like the same places.
Anyway been working my socks off this morning and trying to get into a great frame of mind……..I will get there……just need to work out yet another payment plan to sort out debts and stick to it.
Just for today I am not going to gamble because I am sick and tired off it and really cant be bothered with it anymore.
Maverick