Kathryn, Thank you so much for your post!! I have read through your past few threads, as well as many others, which I have found so helpful as I can relate to so much of what you and others are saying. It is inspiring for me to see people still posting on here that have been gamble free for several years so thank you for taking the time to come back and share that it is possible to have a gamble free life. It is also helpful to know that life’s problems do not magically go away once we quit gambling. I am hopeful that I will be able to work things out with my husband. At times, I get quite resentful as i have quit gambling while he continues to smoke and buy a case of beer every weekend. I know that my gambling was much more destructive than his “bad habits” – I have decided to put aside the same amount he spends on smokes and beer and spend it on myself or save it. Otherwise, I know my resentment will continue to grow and i will end up gambling just to “show him”.
I will be gamble free for 3 months on the 21st. This is exciting for me as i have only gone this long without gambling one other time in the last several years- when I quit gambling for seven or eight months. I am continuing to recognize my triggers. Last night, I babysat my grandson while my daughter and her boyfriend went to the casino. I was happy that I didn’t have any desire to go with them.