Just to say I dropped in and read your thread. I think we have all asked the same question, why this addiction, why me and for me why at 54, when the only bet I had placed before this age Was annually on the grand national. I never even played the lottery. But we may never get the answer to that question. Just to know that you are not alone. When we realise we are CGs and hit this rock bottom, the suicidal ideas are always lurking in the background. This is the addiction speaking and it’s destructive nature. We must fight to get back ourselves and our lives. I am not going to advise you on fessing up to your partner as I am a single woman and not really in a position to offer advice. All I can say is that I wish you the best of luck when you do tell your partner.
