Just for today life is good, no wait a minuite just for today life is great, thats because just for today I am not gambling and in turn the rest of my life just seems to fall into place.
I owe alot of money and in truth I have always owed alot of money, this is purley because I am a compulsive gambler, I have made yet another plan to pay everything back at a managable rate being sure not to over stretch myself and making sure I become tempted to gamble to pay off debts (we all know that never works but its the lie I tell myself to give me the excuse to gamble), I have alot to answer for I really do but in fairness I have always looked after my wife and children and I always will, just like I will always have to fight this addiction, it will always be with me but I know if I can stay gamble free one day at a time then I become ten times the man that I am when gambling.
I except I cannot change what I have done but in all honesty I believe everything happens for a reason and I have learnt alot over the years, about life, about people and about myself, I have always said there are alot of things in this world that I rate above money and in truth money is pretty low on my being important list!, I know we need it to live, rent, mortgage, bills, food but in fairness thats were its importance stops, I have always wanted to get my hands on money just so I can place my next bet, thats it nothing else purley so I can place my next bet!, just for today I dont have any money but just for today I dont need any, I have myself, my piece of mind and my happy state, God thank you for helping me understand this.
I have a very close friend who has just found out he has less than 3 months to live (cancer stage 4), he is a sucsessful business man and has plenty of money, I know for a fact he would give everything he has away just to spend one extra day in this world with the people he knows and loves (who wouldnt) ……………money……….whats it real worth……..”we bring nothing into the world and we take nothing out”
Hope this finds you all well, always keep fighting and never give in, there will be good days and there will be bad, we just have to make the most of whatever each day brings, we cannot change yesterday and we dont know what will happen tomorrow, all we have is today and must live in the now!
Maverick