[lizbeth4]

I’ve done it this time! I’m unable to pay some significant bills. I’ll call, make excuses, and struggle for a few months to catch up. My stomach is churning and the truth be told, I wish I wasn’t here. I briefly thought about ending my life. Its such torment to have this addiction. I can’t talk to anyone in my family or my friends. I would be perceived as weak and stupid. I have to be strong, self reliant and help myself. I’m still in a fog and scared. If I have any type of emergency, I’m screwed. Hanging in there!!!