[addictedbrain 2007]

I’ve been gambling for 4 years now. sure thing it’s gotten worse every year. I got hooked up on gambling when I was jobless, didnt know how dangerous, just playing for fun: baccarat, poker, lottery. Then i got job and started playing more and more till I took out loan from the banks to cover and chase my loss. In September, I declared bankruptcy.
I managed to stop 3 times this year by will power, and 12 step program, I dont have GA group around me. Eachtime i last about 70s day before I relapse.
I am still going to work but i still hate myself.
I just need a new way to maintain sobriety and abstient, thank you for listening