I’ve always found recovery and facing the past a bit of a tight rope walk. We need to remember how OUR gambling impacted our loved ones who never asked for any of the chaos and destruction that it brought to their lives. And no matter how hard we tried to shield them it touched them. But on the other hand we can’t stay mired in those bad feelings and memories or it will make recovery so much more difficult and may drive us to forget in addictive behaviours. It’s a balancing act. Remember where you don’t want to go back to or be like but look forward and living in the moment where today’s actions are what matter. The bad memories have faded for my family as well as for me. But every now and again I have to take them out and hold them up to the light. And remember, I don’t ever want to go back to those days again.
