i gambled again today, no big surprise, i knew i was going to, i’m still chasing my losses from yesterday, i have most of it back, the bit i have lost is the extra i won the other day, of course i want to win it all back but i have made my peace with that loss.
this addiction is hopeless and is not i cannot defeat it
i will never stop gambling
my life will never have an ounce of quality as i am going to dedicate me whole being to gambling
i am happy to gain nothing in return
i accept that i will end my life early
OK THAT TRASH TALK STAYS IN 2016!!!
come on 2017 i am ready for you.
i know it is a cliche starting on new years day but there is just something about that day that motivates you to try that little bit harder. i am taking my life back, my friends, my family, everybody thinks i dont want them to contact me as that has how i have made them feel over the years, when you are gambling, you have no room for distractions. its like working for the CIA or something, in fact i reckon i am now qualified to work in that job.
i am that serious about going into the new year and succeeding that i haven’t gone out tonight, i dont need alcohol to distort my thinking and i dont need to wake up with a hangover to make me feel lazy and un-motivated.
i will phone my grandma and tell her i love her, it makes her so happy to hear those words but i never make time for her. i am not a selfish person but gambling makes the devil look like he has a halo on stood next to me.
i am going to sort out a load of clothes and take them to the homeless shelter, it’s time to give back to society and contribute to someones happiness.
jonny you need to stay a few days in front of me, give me something to chase 😉
i am going to go and watch that video now.
peace everybody, happy new year and here is to a gamble free January 1st 2017