It’s hard to imagine ever being normal again… I know Jac. I hope my words didn’t upset you the other day. If I can give you any hope I’m telling you. Let someone else take over your finances. Block yourself from all those sites. Keep getting counseling. Be honest with yourself. Really learn about yourself. Be open to ask all the questions about yourself that you haven’t ever asked or felt ashamed to ask. Attend some GA meetings and see if they make sense. Start a daily workout regime. Start thinking about the cup half full rather than the other way around. Let any losses go. That’s sooo hard…. Let it all go. Stop even thinking or worrying about yesterday. It’s gone. It can’t be changed no matter how many times we think about it. Don’t stress about tomorrow. Theirs really no need. What’s the point. Don’t even stress about 3 hours from now. Try your best to live in the moment. Feel the oxygen as you breath in and breath out. When you see someone smile at them and say hello and mean it. If you ask them how they are doing really listen and respond to them. Text some friends snd just say hi.
Things will get better for you. But it won’t be over night and it won’t be in a week. When I asked the doctors when I’d be able to stand on my toes again they said be patient and it might just happen one day. I could look at it two ways. This sucks… or this is a blessing? It is my choice to determine how I look at all situations. So I choose to look at it as a blessing for so many reasons. You have a choice Jac to turn things around. No one can wave a magic wand. The right words will not fix this. Hard work, self control, loving yourself, letting go of the past, and trying your best to be grateful will one day lead you to what you want. To look at yourself with respect again. With a one day at a time mind set the impossible can be overcome. I believe in you Jac. But you need to believe in yourself my friend. What’s the plan?
