[Monica1]

Trouble counting.
Thanks idi, I feel a little tearful and emotional this evening. Just undercurrents. I think it is frustration with everything. Systems that are broken. Plus I got one copy of my refs from 14 and 2015. they were very good, the 2 jobs concerned were hard but very successful. It seems I can’t get myself back and that hurts me. It causes me real anguish. I want to feel like my energy is ok but it isn’t. I really struggle to move forward on a daily basis. The anti spasm meds do seem to be working which is a positive. When this thing kicks off I just cry cos it lasts hours.