It is going to be a very hard journey but a rewarding journey. For me my partner wont even help me. I know its not her fault. She is so hurt. She does’nt know what to do. I dont have any money to put in the car for petrol to go and see my son, my father or my brother.,so i can talk to someone. My partner is not talking to me. I don’t blame her. I have taken food out her mouth by gambling the money and the rest. Yes i would like support but as Laura said i need to gain support. Gambling has taken all this away from me. That is the reason why i must start
this journey…..To be with the people i love and to enjoy the beautiful life around me. I don’t see any of this at the moment and its going to take a very long time to make things
right. My head is about to spin off thinking. I feel sick since Friday.. I’m in a big black hole….there is tiny light in this hole called hope… The first thing i have to do is stop gambling to get to the light….How can this be done….How to stop gambling…Let all money you lost go….I know I wont get it back….the rest i don’t honestly know…..People here will help
me and i have to help myself bet this…The journey will do together and it will be hard. Talk soon
