Hello John,
Like you i have an addiction to sports betting and i find the thrill of betting on a game as great as it can get. Over the years, i have lost a lot of money as well betting on sports and many times i will make bets on games i have no clue about just to get some action. I say this to yoy because i can relate to everything you have said. The best advice i can give you is to find something positive that ypu enjoy to occupy your time instead of watching/betting in sports. I have been bet free for 10 days and i have made an effort to not watch games or scroll on espn to check scores. I realize that life was miserable and stressful so its time to move forward. You have made a good choice by posting because just like me, we cannot beat this addiction alone. We must have support. You can do this John, just take it one day at a time.
Keep strong brother.