I’m flying home tomorrow and I hope I bring my self up to telling my wife and hand her over the finances. You guys are right. Being dishonest with one person I rely on and respect the most is probably not a good thing.
I’ve always had stashes. I’ve always made more money than we would spend living comfortably (but less than I could lose) and my wife never had any insight in our finances. I’ve never been honest with her in that regards because I was feeding my addiction.
Come wednesday, I will ask her to take over the finances. I wish I had the guts to tell her about my recent losses too, but I just don’t think I will find the strength to do that.
I feel horrible about the whole thing. About being dishonest, about jeopardizing my own family’s future, about the money and time lost. I’m such an a-hole.