Ican before I ever come to GT I stopped gambling so many times and I was going to go once a week, once a month, or when I was on a trip or something as I did not want to stop or give-up gambling. I would panic at the thought of never playing my machines again. I registered on GT one day and the following week I went crazy gambling. I was in panic mode about never playing my machines again. I am a work in progress and will continue to be for the rest of my life. I also understand that it does not matter how much gamble free time any of us have, as just like that I could be back sitting at a machine in the blink of an eye.
My husband and I went out for lunch today and I went to the washroom, and lo and behold, I see there is a bar/lounge area with vlt’s, and there is a woman at a cash machine drawing out cash and I thought that could be me. It is very very hard to accept that I can’t play those machines again as I am a compulsive gambler. I don’t think that way though as I would probably panic and go running to play a machine. I just know that for today I do not plan on gambling. I also know that I can’t plan to go a month from now, as if I went just once I would be back to square one, as nothing would have changed no matter how much I want it to change. God grant me the serenity to accept that things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Ican what is past is gone, but you can commit to taking it one day at a time. Wishing you a gamble free day.
