I went into a very deep conversation with my self and found out that gambling isn’t about the excitement of winning anymore, it’s about resent and regret of losing that much money and trying to recover it by throwing more money at it. If you win a small amount by chance, you will always think about the losses you have sustained and this will dilute the feeling of winning. Since I found that winning isn’t about the thrills anymore and it’s more of a very momentary relief of getting your initial buyin back and a slight positive variation that lies in the inevitable road to loserville.
TL;DR
Gambling turned from winning and feeling the thrills to becoming the abusive husband/wife that sometimes will give you something but most of the time will take everything away, your ego, dignity, money and family.
