I wanted to post a few thoughts I had about my family. My Sister was here last weekend but I didn’t see her as planned. We were sick and she and my Daughter haven’t talked for about 1 year. They were very close but had some sort of big fight. My Daughter doesn’t want my Sister around her or her son. Okay, well I understand all of this but it seems like someone is always fighting in our family. I was kind of happy that things worked out the way they did as I’m not sure that I am ready to see my Sister. I reached out to her as she would never apologize for anything she has done. We have been communicating through texts and honestly I feel like she hasn’t changed. I feel like I have changed and grown. She said a few things that I had to hold back from replying to as it would be another argument. She wants everyone to go along with what she thinks or all hell breaks loose. I can’t do that anymore. My Sister is all my Mom talks about anymore because she started communicating with my Mom again. It’s not all good things that she is saying. She likes the drama and my Sister’s life is full of it!! I finally told her yesterday that I didn’t want to hear about my Sister anymore. I have listen to it for weeks now. That didn’t go over very well and I had to leave my Mom’s as she got very angry that I didn’t want to hear the gossip. In fact she was mean to me!!! So I left and she called today wanting me to come over for lunch. I told her no that I was doing somethings around my home. My family is so dysfunctional!!! I get sad when I hear how some people here are so close to their Mother’s and Sister’s. I will never have that. I have decided to join a grief group which meets on Wednesdays, only for lose of spouse. I only attended 2 meetings in the city and I think it may be beneficial to me and I may meet some nice people. I am going to church on Sunday. I need to stop talking about it and get out there and meet people. I need to find healthy relationships.
