[3raser]

i thought i could do this Vera, i really wanted to be at the place you are at right now and i thought i was strong enough to do this.

nothing is rational but this little voice inside of me keeps fighting me, i just dont want to be this person anymore but i cant stop it, it feels like some horror movie that i have rolled my eyes at many times over. i feel that my existence is so unimportant right now that whatever i decide will not matter . today i gambled and today i wished i was anybody but myself