[lizbeth4]

I saw my youngest Daughter and Granddaughter yesterday evening. My Granddaughter came right to me and gave me a lot of kisses. It’s been 6 weeks since I saw her last. I brought my Daughter’s steel toed work boots to her as she officially starts her job tomorrow. She is struggling financially and I feel guilty that I can’t help her more. A result of my gambling! This addiction has caused fear, shame, guilt to linger in me. Will I ever be free of these feelings? It causes self doubt and low self esteem. Sometimes I feel less than everyone around me and that I’m only existing.