[lizbeth4]

I made it through the gambling urges. I have my Xmas tree decorated and I’m in my PJs watching TV. So there’s no gambling for me! I reread a article about toxic and dysfunctional family members. It helped! It’s so draining and if I let it, I will be destroyed. It’s just sad as our birthdays and Xmas is coming up. There has always been a underlying anger that she has against me. There’s no discussing it as she gets defensive and mad. I’m no angel as I have said many awful things in return to her outbursts. Well it’s done! I feel terrible that it happened but I am going to distance myself again. I’m so envious of people who have close relationships with their Mothers. It should be like that!!