I know I shouldn’t be posting while at work, but I am in bits. I have accrued a 2700 fine from HMRC because I didn’t pay the VAT bill on time, and this is something I cannot affford. My company has debts coming out of its ears, and I can honestly say it is all because gambling took me away from running my business. INstead of working, I was gambling. I just don’t understand why I have done this to myself, and I am terrified of the future.
I know I must remain calm, that businesses go bust all th etime, but I think that I am breakling the law keeping the business going. I think I have to face the fact that we are essentially insolvent and we have no work coming in and all the money from the last contracts (worth 250K) has essentially been spent. I am so stupid to have done this, I do not understand why i could not be happy with what I had, and take pleasure from building my business rather than running it into the ground.
If anyone out there has advice I would like to hear it. I really don’t know where to turn, to be honest.
I know my reputation is going to be ruined by this, and that no one will want to work with me again. All I want to do is gamble to forget my worries, but i am not going to do that. The temptation to play is overwheling, because that would allow me to hide and forget – but now, I am going to face up to my life and move on from this.
Love to all Mav