I hope u two gorgeous people found each other.. Im glad I didn’t go as I would have been the mountain wearing the clothes which no longer fit !!! Geordie , I love your really long reply. It makes great reading.
I sometimes kick myself for not stopping sooner too, and while I’m sure there are easier and better ways to do it , the slips reinforced for me that I can’t gamble “just one tenner”.
I don’t believe they are inevitable … I just think it took me longer to accept that the big win will never come , and to really accept I’m not special or chosen to receive wealth . I kinda always thought I would somewhere deep down.
Now I can appreciate that i don’t need a five star hotel or a the best make-up to feel happy.. I knew I sound so shallow but somehow it has taken me years to understand that a happy home and living within my means is true happiness.
I accept at last that living an ordinary life is a good life ..
And I think for me the slips were like having my thick head banged against a wall to knock some sense into it!!
Slips are not inevitable … They are what they are .. Times when the addiction won.
It doesn’t have to be hard to quit, but sometimes I felt it would never happen.. I felt I couldn’t .
What’s different this time for me … Acceptance of what is, expecting more from the life I have and letting go of the life i imagine i should have .
Geordie , I am so pleased to read that you can afford to take time off to spend with your grandson. These are the things that make life good !! I hope you love Dublin as much as I do , and u get to enjoy a few pints of the dark stuff!