I hear you Kin! Short memory!
Why would we want to go back to that dark hellish place of full blown gambling and all of it’s terrible consequences?
It is a artificial sense of excitement this sense of “winning” and the possibility of it. Was does it do? For our physical and spiritual being? It usually deprives by stealing all the focus and resources that should be devoted to our self and not one little addictive part of our brain that is running the show.
Your journal and thoughts help me greatly Kin to see how to put recovery into practice.
I’m sorry for your lapse but you know where this will take you and I’m glad you are back here. Have a gamble free day.
Laura