I have no concept of the importance of money when I gamble, after the event I fully comprehend the massive hole I have just dug and most times a lift couldn’t get me out of them!
Believe it or not I am quite an intelligent man (yeah right) how can I write that after what I have done, well I have an important job, helping and advising a lot of people on many technical issues along with also dealing with hundreds of people face to face on a daily basis helping out with there very many issues………….these people don’t know about my addiction or what I have done……………..it reminds me of a song I used to like (and still do in truth), by Smokey Robinson and The Miracles called The Tracks Of My Tears, I wont paste a link as that’s not me but if you don’t already know it search for it and have a listen, either way its a classic song but I can relate to it.
God why did I ever gamble and place that first bet as a 14 year old boy those many years ago and why on earth did the bloody thing win!!!!!!, I have asked this question myself so very many times and the answer I have come up with is if I hadn’t of made that bet and so very many for the few years after I wouldn’t have had a hiding place through the later parts of my school years and in truth I probably wouldn’t be in the world now……who knows it is what it is.
Maverick