I have been where u were . I felt cursed . Ordinary things made me want to gamble . I played on line slots and there were so many types -everything in life reminded me of a different machine – like a beautiful sunset reminded me of the one u needed two Suns to get the bonus- fruit pastiles reminded me a a colourful fruity sweet one .
I did feel cursed and I cannot say whether this was coincidental but my life changed dramatically after a member of the clergy prayed with me and blessed me .
I didn’t realise until a week or two later .
Cold turkey is what it took me. I still have thoughts now and again but I can handle them.
Keep strong – try forcing yourself to do other things . U will get there and u will think less about gambling .