Why gas your poor cat?
Why consider suicide?
These are not rational thoughts. You are not thinking straight that is not unusual. It’s distorted thinking which befalls every CG unfortunately. It’s part of the package. Not a package we go out and seek but one we end up with. Nobody asks to be a CG. It is the way we are. But everyone of us has the capability to change. You will know deep down you can change, surely as a counsellor you must have witnessed many changes in the people you deal with.
Why don’t you go for addiction counselling?
Maybe you are justified in your suspicions about your partner, but to be honest I’d say you’re deflecting away from your own situation concerning the gambling by snooping on partner.
You might think he is clueless and you’ve covered up your gambling brilliantly by being a good actress. I’d think it more likely he’s seen a big change in your moods and behaviour over the months and maybe he’s unhappy with you.
Maybe you think if he is being unfaithful to you, or considering it, then rather than telling him about your gambling situation, you could confront him about your suspicions. Then whether he is up to no good or not you might have a massive row and end up parting. Your distorted thinking might just be saying that to do that would be easier than having to tell him.
Tina, you live with this man you love this man. Be honest with this man he will either help you or he wont, but for you to leave gambling in the past I firmly believe you do have to tell him.
I don’t believe that because of anything I’ve read in a book Tina. I believe that because of my own experiences and the experiences of others.
Our behaviour when gambling is secretive and dishonest. To stop our gambling we have to change our behaviour. We have to stop being secretive and dishonest.
It’d probably be easier to gas yourself and the cat, than tell him I can understand that.
The poor cat hasn’t got an addiction and you would in effect be murdering the poor thing!
Seriously nothing good can come from your suicide for anybody. Loads of good can befall you if you live the rest of your life without gambling.
In order to achieve that you really have to get to work on telling him. Before the depression gets worse and worse.
Please try today. Even if your relationship breaks down because of it, you will be able to start making those baby steps away from gambling.
I’ve really got to go Tina.
Take care.
(And dont murder that cat)!