I couldn’t get back on chat???? I GAMBLED again last night!!!!!
I feel terrible about It. It’s not the answer, I know that. I don’t deal with stress well. I want to inflict self destructive things upon myself. Gambling is it!! So is isolation. I reached out to my Sister of all people about my Daughter. I know she cares. I explained what was going on and she at a loss of words. She’ll be here for a visit tomorrow. She told me to hang on as there isn’t much I could do about the situation. It was nice talking to you Jen. My Daughter is a adult but she is making bad choices for her Daughter, my Granddaughter. That’s my concern. I know the vicious cycle of lying. I’ve done it with my gambling addiction. The only reasons to lie is to cover up or hide something. I do have a third party who is also looking out for the welfare of my Granddaughter. That’s my only relief. If it wasn’t gambling it would be another vice. My goal today is to be gamble free! I can do it.
