I am really glad to hear that you are putting up those barriers to prevent yourself from going. It is great that you allowed your girlfriend to have access to the online banking to monitor your usage. Stay strong and don’t forget to use all your resources. The worst thing you can do is try to depend on only yourself to get through this. It is a terrible addiction that really requires help from a lot of resources. Online support is great, but also consider finding GA meeting groups around you and seek therapy. Do whatever you can now to stop it from getting worse. My boyfriend and I just split because of this, it has been 2 years of off and on destruction. Do this for yourself and your future of keeping strong family and romantic relationship(s). Just remember that sometimes you think you’re doing great, but the monster will always be inside of you and you always have to continue to fight each day. Do not stop doing what you’re doing because you think you’re “better” now. Keep up with your meetings and support, and you will live a great life free of gambling. Good luck!
