Well Tango I’m afraid I cant agree with you I’ve had very little experience of not gambling just because I had no money. I stole, burgled and robbed many times to get money to gamble. If you’ve been around 7 or 8 years you’ll probably have read of the sickenning obnoxious callous and wicked stunt I pulled in 2005, which resulted in me going back to prison on an 18 month sentance, my fifth sentance inside, after 17 years since I’d last come out of prison.
I know what it’s like.
You say that it’s a well travelled road, your wife or dad looking after your funds. But yet, it appears you still have the capability to get log book loans and payday loans. To access the money from the loans you must have had access to a bank account and therefore you havnt ringfenced your access to funds have you. When asking people to look after your finances it should be 100% of access, they could even keep your ID safe for you mate. Show them how serious you are actions do speak louder than words.
Your Wife and Dad want you to get better, but they are at the end of their tether with you, I dont blame them for not wanting to look after your money. But but but, when youve tried this before youve gone behind their backs and been deceitful. Why not suggest this time they do it and you hand over all ID and bank cards? So you cannot get loans, give them your log-book, show them you mean what you say, if you do of course.
It wont fix you, but putting payday loans and whatever else out of reach, access to gambling will become more difficult and, in time, less of a temptation.
There are nearly always ways and means to gamble Tango, dependant on your tolerance of it. I read peoples stories of destructive gambling, nearly everyday. There are, apperently, always good reasons for not installing blockers, going to GA, not having funds looked after. The reasons given, in my cynical mind, are just cop outs. Change is hard, change is difficult, change just dosn’t happen. It requires hard work, real commitment and barrel loads of self-confidence.
To me Tango, it sounds like you have little confidence in yourself. “I will ALWAYS find a way to get the money,” Or your post today didn’t sound too confident. “”..so will see what happens”
I must have said dozens of times on this forum the hardest thing for me was accepting that yes I could change. And after rehab in 2010, perhaps before, I started changing, I’ve still a long way to go in some respects…but life is a journey. As Laura would say, progress not perfection.
I am a very cynical person I’m afraid, having been a lying toe-rag and theiving gambling **** for a very long time I know that my gambling and my deceit knew no boundaries. You still have some Tango, if you truly and honestly want to stop gambling ask for the help and practical support you need so badly, bcause believe me mate being homeless or in prison is no picnic.
Of course if you still hang on to the belief that you can win a few quid and walk away with it, then no support will protect you from yourself. (Maybe a sttraight jacket and manicles).
I wish you well with your journey and well done for not succombing over the last 4 days.