Well done on getting through day 30!
9 years on and I still remember those feelings after a big loss.
Doesn’t hurt to remind yourself how you DONT want to feel.
The pit in my stomach, the fear of my husband getting to the mailbox before me, the dread of what I was going to do now.
I know that if I gamble nothing will change, I will get sucked straight back into that hell hole.
The best revenge is living well.
I still get urges, they may be few and far between these days but I quash them as quickly as they come.
I always thought of gambling as exciting, the anticipation of it all.
I told my brother of my addiction many years ago and he said to me ‘geez, you must have a pretty boring life.’
I was crushed. I have never mentioned it to him again.
In hindsight, he was right. Spending my life in a venue staring at a screen.
How boring is that?????
I will spend today with my daughter and my grandchildren.
Cuddles and coffees and conversation.
That, to me, is really living.
Keep fighting…….you’re worth it.
Love K xxx
