Dear diary
I was tired and if I had relied on myself to stay gamble free, I could have fail yesterday.
I needed a Higher Power to keep me safe, it came in the form of a person, Charles was there for me at the right place, at the right time with the right words.
He was able to help me look at the same situation from a different angle, at a very critical moment when I was blinded.
My mind was already fixated and focusing on the next gamble and the conveniences that a winning gamble can provide me with the additional money.
I could not see the consequences and inconveniences that a losing gamble can give me. I was already making plan to punt on the 3.45am match at 2am.
I chatted with Charles and he simply ask me to choose “to do what is best for me.”
Immediately I got the message and can see very clearly all the inconveniences that a losing gamble can bring to me. It can affect me up to 2 months, it is simply not worth it anymore to go ahead with the gamble.
What I am facing now is just a temporary inconvenient that will definitely pass.
It was uneasy but I can live without the additional money from a winning gamble.
Higher Power and God of our own understanding works in a very mysterious way. It has kept me gamble free today.
Thank you Charles!