Thanks for the post Vera and I like our discussions. Yes, I do agree that we only see glimpses this side of eternity and I know that things are set up pretty much before we come re life purpose etc. What I cannot bear is the silence, the nothingness, no clear message or sign, despite all my prayers and requests for help. I also do not agree as GA kept rattling on about growth through pain. I actually dont agree with that, we can grow in peace and joy too,. A lifetime of pain and heartache is simply not balanced. We seem as humans to expect some happy endings or are sold into the fairy tale happy ever after or there is always hope. But if you look at others and my dads life for example, it was an extremely unhappy, throughout all of it, perpetuated by much loss. We are all sold a dream that is illusion and not real. Suffering has no doubt dragged me down completely shattering my confidence, my energy and hope. So bloody difficult. I am grateful for the very little I have but really can’t survive like this as used to so much more. It is always more difficult to have had a lot and lost it than never to have had it at all. I do hope idis quote from Scripture I read earlier today about everything the locusts or devils take from us will be replenished has some truth in it. Now that would give me some hope but I don’t think it is true… I wish it was.
I am glad you posted ty Vera as again As said earlier, I do like our discussions.
