My flu is getting a lot more bearable now, I’m still drinking your remedy 🙂 and i have just broken up from work so that should help.
I totally agree about the money, unfortunately i have no one i trust to hold my finances, i don’t live neary parents and i don’t want to disappoint them by telling them what I’ve done with my money over the years, they wouldn’t understand as they have struggled with money over the years and would feel sickened at my waste. Plus my mum used to steal my savings when i was little and i cant risk something like that triggering me off.
I’ll get the £100 in next months wage which is 5 weeks away, my solution has only ever been to gamble, it’s amazing how i always find money for that but not for anything else.
I was supposed to be picking up a laptop yesterday that i had reserved (second hand one) i really wanted it and normally in this situation i would gamble and put enough on to win enough for the laptop and some left over. This time i had a long think about it, decided i don’t really need it right now and when my finances are better i can buy myself a new one, so i explained to the shop, they gave me my £20 deposit back plus i didn’t have to hand over £140 yesterday to pay it off so in theory I’m £160 better off with that extra money coming in 5 weeks time. I feel good about how i handled it and used the money to fill the car and buy some treats for xmas. Xmas is my next milestone. I’ve been looking forward to xmas gambling for weeks.
I really appreciate how you still drop in on this site Vera, most people probably disappear once they feel like they have mastered staying free of gambling but you still come here and give people like me the opportunity to see what it’s like to turn things around. I for one am very grateful for that as you have been one of my inspirations, you and somebody called Andy who’s journey prompted me to document mine so thank you