Hi Vera,
Thanks for responding to my post. I really appreciated it. Of of my problems is that I constantly play the compare game in my head and get down. I think I should be doing better then any of my friends or colleagues. It’s a scary thing how competitive I am deep down inside. That competitiveness definitely played into my compulsive gambling.
By gambling and weed habits I chose to not go to networking parties, chose to take not make time for friends or family, chose to live half in the present and half in the gamble (you all know what I mean, checking scores while trying to do something else), I chose to not pay attention to life going by around me, I chose the wrong direction in my career thinking short term rather than long term, I didn’t go out, I didn’t go out on dates, I didn’t mature….. so many why’s and why nots…. I will not gamble today. Today is my hundredth day 15. I strive to not have a 101th time. One day at a time. Focus on the task ahead…
1. My injury was a work related injury.
2. My doctors will allow me to go back to work when they think I’m ready because I don’t have to lift anything and am in a desk for a couple weeks. They will have to approve me leaving the country and flying on the flight. Getting back to work might not be the worst thing as it’s helping me get my mind off of everything else.
3. I think I answered this.
4. I just got more advise from a new doctor and he pretty much told me to chill and give it time.
I went to PT today and worked out as hard as I could with the PT. He had to tell me to stop and not to over do it. He also told me that I did a good job. I could tell he was happy that I was taking it very serious and working hard. That made me feel better and gave me some more confidence that I might be able to walk normal again. I feel like I’m walking a tiny bit better already. 🙂
Here’s to not gambling and walking normal again!!! Here’s to good people who care!! Here’s to giving back!!!
Thank you!