Hi Vera,
Very kind of you to read and reply to my thread. The truth is that once i placed that bet i wanted to loose straight away so that i could close that account. Which is what happened. In a strange way i am developing more clarity in my thoughts. Just a week ago i was feeling sick to my core with myself and my situation. I have put a few actions in place to tackle my debts and again i am going to be positive.
I do admit i am a compulsive gambler, i do know i can never place that first bet again. I know i cannot do it on my own, i need to confide in my Fiance, i need her to help me.
She does know i have the debt and a serious gambling problem, she just doesn’t know i have re-lapsed. I will tell her i have re-lapsed after xmas, but i wont ruin the next 6 weeks of her xmas because of my mistakes.
As you say, i am the one who is responsible for my addiction not anyone else, but i am trying and willing to get.
Again VERA, most kind of you to reply, thanks.