Hi, dear. Thank you for your message. It made me feel supported. I am stuck here. I don’t know what to do. It is like a caught 22 situation. He wants to give our family and our marriage one more try. I do as well. But not to live in the hell again. And the hell is seeing my husband being controlled by his needs of gambler. He told me I have nothing to worry about but I guess it is the same that most of them used to tell when they are in the denial process. He tells me he knows when to stop but the reality is I saw how exhausted he was. Like he had been gambling during a lot of nights in a row and working during the daytime. I didn’t say no because I want to give it a try. Because I low him, because of our children…. But now after 24 hours I am thinking about everything I have been learning to and I can see clearly myself in that web of lies, “acceptance”, afraid of confrontation, and the game where he pretends to tell the truth and I pretend to believe. What good can come up from a situation like that?
Love
Claire
