Thank you for the encouragement and words of wisdom. I completely agree that I can’t continue to hope for the big win and I’ve got to stop all together. It’s difficult, my mind is playing tricks on me. I’m thinking things like, now that you’ve posted your story and your trying to quit you would be able to gamble again and walk out with your winnings. I know it’s a lie. I can’t ***** how many times I’ve told myself that lie and believed it. I’m a little down today. I’m struggling with the hurt I’m going to cause others by coming clean. I realize that continuing to gamble is what will really hurt my loved ones, so I’m focusing on not doing that ever again. The temptation is real and I don’t get paid until Friday, although I can take a $100 loan tomorrow. I don’t know what my life’s suppose to look like without gambling. Thanks again, I really appreciate every comment. I feel like writing these things down is already helpful me to focus. And truthfully I realize just how unreasonable my addiction is as I confess my thoughts and feelings. I’m glad you’re fighting! Keep it up! My wife only caught me one time and it hurt her and I promised I’d never do it again. My sister is the only other close family I could confide in. I wrote her a text yesterday and then deleted it. She’s such a good person that I’m always ashamed of how week I am. I’m hoping to be clean for at least a couple of months before I share with anyone I know. Hopefully if this doesn’t workout I’ll do the right thing and talk to them.
