Hi there,
I wanted to answer a question you asked on my thread.
The answer is this, if nothing changes, nothing changes.
I still have the desire to go to the casino. When things get stressful, my mind starts planning to gamble. It is as if I turned on this switch somewhere along the road. Gambling used to be a fun night out. Then it turned into an escape from my life. It became a compulsion.
This I believe is true in most addictions. Our brain has decided that the problem is the answer.
You have come here for help. And there is help here. I was very sick and tired of breaking promises to myself. I think that is what you are saying too.
I had to realise that barriers put in place is the first step in getting my head back in order.
First be honest, if I was really honest, I wish I could gamble without all the negative consequences. I can’t. I have proven this over and over. Go to the GA site and take the 20 question test. I was shocked by how many of them applied to me.
Put someone in charge of your money. If you want it to stay your money and it not belong to the casino, this is smart. You absolutely have to act when you are at your low point, because, if your brain is jacked up like mine was, as soon as you see a break or have an opportunity, you could be off again.
This addiction is beatable. It is maneageble, it is not all controlling. You can control it. But you have to start.
I believe this with all my heart and I am adding you to my prayer list. There is a reason that GA talks so much about a higher power. When we can’t, God can. Just ask.
