Hi Stephen, I’m glad to see you doing so well and am grateful the community has been supporting you. I’m still healing from a big surgery and sometimes when I am increasing activity and rehab exercises I can be wiped out for a while. So sorry I haven’t posted in a bit.
You are right when you say this will take time to sort out. We can’t undo the mess in a day. The anxiety and racing thoughts can be terrible and difficult. I just reminded myself that my loved ones wanted me to be with them and well. That gambling or suicide wasn’t an answer. And as I was reminded by the good people here all I needed to focus on was the next task, or the next right choice. One step at a time can be the beginning of an amazing journey. Deep breathing, meditation if possible, practicing self care, all these things can help with the anxiety. The bills can feel overwhelming. Focus on paying for the necessities. Roof over head, food on the table, petrol in the car for work. And of course quality time with your son can help ease the ill feelings. I’m sure he’s thrilled to kick around a ball or watch his favourite show with you. Take care and keep us posted.
Laura