Hi Rip and welcome to the forum. I hate to tell you but if you continue it will only get worse. I can say from experience. In four years of gambling over a roughly six year period of time I managed to sabotage my life.
You threw away your cards but we all know how to get replacements or new ones. Can you ban from the casinos? Not possible? Well then can you ask a trusted family member to help you with money? If we don’t have access to money we can’t gamble.
Thank you as from me as well Kin! You have always been so smart, intelligent. We know that falling for this doesn’t mean we are stupid people. Thank you for being here.
Keep posting RIP. We are often isolated because of our addiction. Staying connected to those who know what this addiction is like can be part of the answer.
Keep searching for answers and knowledge. Take care,
Laura