Welcome,
I totally understand the shame you feel. The inability to control myself even though I knew what the outcome would be every single time. I would never leave until it was all gone.
Is there any way you can limit your access to money? If you don’t have it you cant spend it!
I know it seems daunting telling your partner. It was one of the most difficult things I have ever done. I was in a hole so deep we had to sell our house to get out of it.
I gave him total control of the finances. I could not be trusted with any kind of money. It was really hard, but it gave me some space to breathe.
I started much like you. My mother and I would go to a gambling venue once a week for a coffee and a ‘bit of fun’. I still cant pinpoint when that changed for me. I guess the first time I realised I could go on my own maybe?
Keep reading and posting here, you will get some great advice and ideas to help you manage your addiction.
Take care, Love K xx
