Hi No More, I am glad that you have found this forum. I don’t know how we can fool ourselves so badly, all to satisfy our need to gamble. We never get back what we lose. And if by some miracle we win what we’ve lost and can square things up it won’t remain. The same madness drives us back again. And we will play til we lose it all.
You are very lucky that your wife is willing to give you another chance to clean up your problem. Have you been able to access addictions counseling of any kind? Not sure where you are from and what is available there. Look over the resource section here. Maybe talk to the people on that chat line. Sometimes email counseling or telephone counseling can be arranged. You need to start developing tools and supports. Also, you should no longer have access to the money. Nobodies including your own. You’ve proven over and and over again that you can be trusted with money. Let your wife take over control of the funds. Or take care of it together. No more secrets. It takes a long time before we can have a responsible relationship with money.
Keep posting, I think your original post got lost in a lot of traffic on the forum.
take care,
Laura
