Hi Nick, thanks for posting and sharing where you are coming from. I hope you continue to post to your journal so that you have a record of what you are feeling and going through. So many times I’ve read an old post and been surprised at how I was feeling or what I was doing. It reminds me that I’m willing to sink low. So yes Nick, even though you are currently financially stable, that will not last if you keep gambling. I love how you state you can’t out earn your stupidity! Very true when gambling. There is never enough. I gambled everything til there was nothing left but a big pile of debt. Gambling IS the enemy. And sometimes it will back away and fall silent but it is always there. Waiting for it’s opportunity to gain a foot hold again. Have you ever thought of putting a second name on that savings account? One that you have to go in to make a withdrawal with two people? Anything that reduces your access to money helps.
I wish you much success in ridding your life of this addiction. It is a silent killer. You deserve a much better life than what it will bring. If you think of placing a bet, play the tape to the end in your mind. Broke, destitute maybe, hating yourself, feeling very foolish. And let the urge pass. Take care!
Laura
