Hi Monica, so sorry I haven’t been around nearly as much. The summer is in full swing and when you live seaside you try and enjoy each and every minute of it. I wish I could tell you the anxiety will go away. Mine is always there, sometimes tucked away for a while but it will come back. I often think that comes from being a sensitive empathetic (perhaps slightly empathic?) person. And maybe when we aren’t running from our issues by gambling (or shopping) to cover them up it contributes to these feelings of anxiety. The alternative is not the answer of course. We have to figure out better ways to accept and deal with our feelings and emotions. So here are all the wins that I could read in your posts:
-family talking of healing and heritage (perhaps they have a strong positive example)
-family supporting one another
-you have enough savings to take care of yourself for many todays
-you are making progress around the house
-you are staying on top of your health
-you are still learning about yourself
-You are almost ONE YEAR gamble free!!!!!!!!!!
I know life isn’t always positive and we are allowed to get down. Just don’t let the stinking thinking get hold and tell you that recovery has no benefits because I see a lot of them in you and your posts. Hope you’re feeling a little better and that you have found a little peace again.
take care!