Hi Monica,
I have to say GA doesn’t really do it for me either – I find It place where men stroke their own ego – either by being a straight person and “telling it as it is ” (in other words lacking diplomacy but possessing arrogance in abundance )by being the worse gambler there and hence the greatest “recoverer” (big shot), by being the most spiritual and inflicting poetry on everyone else to show it, by being the “organiser” and authoritively and loudly keeping everyone else in line , by being the rebel who seeks to over throw the organiser, and mostly I find the people who really need to be heard are simply tolerated – it actually reminds me of a men’s club rather than a recovery programme. I don’t think anyone has mentioned steps at mine so yours does sound better.
I get where u are at – I have never felt worse. When I feel low I get bitter – you have probably noticed that (poor Ga Men just got it ).
Monica the harsh truth is that we inflicted this pain on ourselves – however we did not choose to be addicts – you are right – why did God inflict this on us and not some of the people I work with ? is this my karma ? Why not inflict this on criminals who hurt other people ?
Life is not fair – God allows Criminals to live lives of luxury – we make a mistake and we are punished for years.
Yeah I’m getting angry too – but anger kinda motivates me – I will not lie down under this-
Have u any of that product you were going to sell- can u start doing that ? You could maybe make a few hundred in the run up to Christmas ? ( the bailiff can’t touch cash he doesn’t know about )!I have just started selling everything I can see on eBay .
We might be alone – but we are formidable women- we just lost our way for a while .
I think it be would be good to go to chat – i am a great believer in having a plan – a plan gives us hope and let’s us see some kind of progress in the future – perhaps a group of us could work on a “Plan of hope and action” for you .
Does that sound daft ? I sound like the Tony Robbins of GT.
I think Laura is right- she u are focused on surviving day to day with little money – It is probably not the best time to start work on emotional issues that make you feel low . This time is maybe a good time to sort more practical issues .
I hope this post helps Monica and I hope I am not sounding like I am lecturing you . I think I am talking to myself as much as you.