Hi there
I am so glad to hear that your family have been so supportive to you that is wonderful. What i am concerned about is your talk of suicide and how after you mentioned to your doctor you couldnt have the anti depressants incase you take them all then she let you come home? I am amazed that you are feeling this way and someone from the medical profession just let you go. Mon from the way you are talking about suicide i would suggest you go check in with a professional and tell them exactly how you are feeling, i dont think its wise to be listening to you talk of suicide and then just ask how your day is it seems a little alarming to me and i am concerned for your safety right now.
I understand where you are at and have been there myself before mentally. I cant see someone talk of suicide on here and not say anything.
Please seek help. I am really happy for you about your family helping and happy for you with your gamble free time…
Please seek help and if you are about come to chat
P