Hi Maverick, I felt deeply touched by your above post. Don’t ever give up hope!!! Even in the darkest times, it is there!!! Keep looking. It seems like you are really down. Is there someone who you can talk to? Maybe a counselor? I know that this has helped me. Bullying is the most horrible act and can leave a life long effect on us. I know that my Grandson has been bullied in the past and his Mother (my daughter) went to school and nipped it right there. My Grandson has learned that he has to stand up for himself , which he now does. People bully because of ignorance and because they are not happy with themselves. I am glad that you went to your son’s school and defended him. That shows what a wonderful Father you are! I know that you feel like you are in a bad place right now but if you would find all the wonderful qualities that you possess, you would see your real value to your family, yourself and society. Don’t give up on yourself Maverick. You can move forward!!