Hi Mathew,
I sympathise and understand where you are coming from. My girlfriend found my credit card statements showing over 8k of debt totally attributed to gambling last year. I had previously told her that i would stop and i wasn’t addicted, l don’t know if i was lying to myself or her. Anyway i did stop for seven or eight months until i relapsed recently and thought i could control it, evidently not…
Sometimes we truly believe we can stop, even though we know we have no control over why we are doing this.I have re-lapsed this week and closed my account permanently….. again.
You need to close all your online accounts and can never gamble again, you would be lying to yourself, as i have done, if you think you can control this terrible addiction without help and support.
Sort out your gambling problems and the trust will return, sometimes we have to hit the bottom before we can come back up.
Hoping this helps.