Thanks for your post. Yep, I think this is the really hard bit, facing up to the reality of what we have done….not having such a good day today, I’m not much good at caring on as if nothing has happened today. My family, especially my mother had the attitude of pretending the hard and horrible stuff in her life, never happened so as a youngster I witnessed some horrible stuff that was never talked about again, swept under the carpet as well f nothing had happened. I recognise that this is happening now. I was a depressed teenager, I think because of this. Familiar feelings and experiences right now, but at least I understand what is happening now….
This forum and my counsellor can offer me a safe place to express what I am feeling, and that for now is okay. My partner, no doubt has always been like this and I can’t expect him to change because this is my preferred way of communication, I guess,…..some woman can be so much different to men when it comes to expressing ourselves.
Lizbeth, I think you are right, I need to really step up on the self care aspect and I have some ideas. I hope you are also getting the support you need. I haven’t gambled with money since the 24 October 2017 and I don’t feel like gambling but I am however, feeling a little low today.
Take care
Tina